"Emo Music Kept Me Alive" (Community Post)
Content warning: The following community post contains references to suicide, depression, anxiety, and sexual assault - which may be triggering for some readers.
"Emo Music Kept Me Alive,"
Boston Emo/Pop Punk Community Post
Hello friends! Craig from Art of Survival here!
We're taking a break from our July vacation to share something very special we had the opportunity to participate in over the weekend!
But first, some context -
After the news broke of Chester Bennington's suicide on Thursday, we were shattered - as were many other people from our generation. The lead singer of Linkin Park - the band that spawned a reawakening of rock music in the late 90s/early 00s - had died by hanging.
I cried. A lot. I also sat in much confusion.
And I tried to grasp how we lost another great musician so young.
We've received a great bit of information concerning Chester's personal life over the last few days, and it's clear there was a lot we didn't know about him. I hate knowing he suffered so much in private, and yet, music is where he vented it all - even on the band's latest/most stripped away album, "One More Light." While I wasn't a fan of it musically, I went back through it the other day and truly, he poured himself into that album.
The signs were there.
And today, Linkin Park released a heart-breaking letter to its fans.
As a two-time suicide attempt survivor, I understand, to a degree, how difficult it can feel to live with varying levels of depression, anxiety, trauma, and a desire to live anymore. I came up with Linkin Park - from 2000-2005, I could be found screaming Chester's lyrics into my bathroom mirrors. So this loss really impacted me harder than any of the recent celebrity deaths.
That brings us to this weekend.
In Boston, the we have a booking collective called Coach and Sons Old Time Family Booking. These great human beings put on a near-monthly event called "Live Band Emo/Pop Punk Karaoke." It is exactly what it sounds like - there is a live band, filled with loads of talented humans from various Boston-based bands, and they play setlists like the ones below. And audience members all have the chance to perform their favorite emo/pop punk tracks of yesteryear.
We were asked to table at the event and supply information on suicide prevention in our community, as well as collect donations for the night's special charity song, which was aptly chosen as "In the End," by Linkin Park.
Throughout the night, we asked people to share their stories of how emo/pop punk music impacted or saved their life - or, they could share specific bands or songs that got them through the hardest time of their life. We would then take their card and place it on the wall behind us so that people knew to add to the wall.
As you can see below, the wall filled up throughout the night, and it was beautiful. More and more stories were added and Katy and I were continuously holding back tears as we put a new piece on the wall. And it was even more powerful to watch folks in the crowd come over to read the cards as well.
There was an air of solidarity that evening.
These are their responses...
Some people shared how the emo and pop punk scenes have impacted their lives...
Lots of people shared specific bands that have meant a lot to them and/or have saved their lives...
Others shared the song or songs that has helped them through the difficult times in their lives...
...while many paid tribute to the band and man that helped many of us discover ourselves...
Ultimately, the theme of the night was perfectly summed up with one comment...
Throughout the night, we spoke with hundreds of people who had been impacted by this music scene in one way or another. We're used to fielding stories here - we've shared nearly 150 in just over a year, so you can imagine that we've heard a lot. And creating a space where complete strangers felt comfortable sharing these stories - and many others that were not written down - was amazing.
Our scene was still reeling, still in pain from this recent loss of Chester, but there was so much optimism in the air as well. So many people were willing to talk with each other that night and it was so inspiring.
We love doing this work, and a night like Saturday completely confirmed it. We paid homage to the music that has helped us heal over the years - the music that has kept us alive. We also paid homage to a man that made music that helped many of us discover ourselves.
We don't get paid to do this, we do it so that people know that they are not alone in the various struggles we all face and are often afraid to confront or discuss.
But that's how we saved ourselves and save our friends - we must be willing to discuss our mental health in order to destigmatize the taboo behind the issue.
I want to heal,
I want to feel,
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
- "Somewhere I Belong," Linkin Park
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