Tattoosday 001: It's Okay
Content warning: The following story contains references to self-harm, anxiety, and drug use, which may be triggering to some survivors.
“It’s Okay,” Kait Darling
I recently got "IT'S OKAY" tattooed across the insides of my fingers. Out of all of my tattoos (which cover about 70% of my body at this point) this is by far the most meaningful one.
I got this for ME.
It's a constant and permanent reminder that no matter how bad things may seem, that at the end of it all, it's okay. I've suffered from anxiety since I was a small child and my depression set in as I got older.
Coming from a family with an alcoholic father and a heroin addicted sister, my childhood and teenage years weren't exactly ideal. All while they were struggling with addiction, I was battling some pretty serious demons of my own.
The end of middle school was when I really hit rock bottom. I resorted to cutting myself on an almost daily basis in order to deal with my feelings and my home life. High school got even worse for me when my anxiety became absolutely crippling and going to school every day was a fight.
An eating disorder also grabbed hold of me, adding more fuel to the fire. Three high schools and a drop out later, I finally started to gain some control over my emotions, along with the help of some medication. Suicide always seemed like a good option to me, and after a few attempts but to no avail, I figure there must be a reason that I'm still alive.
Here I am, all these years later, almost 25 years old and soon to be married. Every day is still a struggle but I refuse to stop fighting.
I hate to see that there are other people that have to deal with this stuff as well but I'm glad that my trials and tribulations can be used in a positive way to help others get through their dark times. If I had to go through the hell that I went through in order to help even just one person, then it all will have been worth it.
Tattoosday is way to demonstrate the storytelling quality of tattoos as well as the healing quality of tattoos.
If you would like to share the stories behind your ink, send us a picture of a tattoo or tattoos that have a significant story tied to your survival in life. Then write at least 400 words (you can write as many as you'd like) about the tattoo, it's meaning, and what it means to you today.
These stories will all run on Tuesdays!
One per week! So you have plenty of time to submit them to us!
The caveat with TATTOOSDAY is that we will not be making you a free piece of art, instead, your ink IS the art we will share with the story—which makes the most sense. BUT we will send you some stickers for sharing your story with us!